How are you?

How am I today? Horrible and I can't shake it. I don't feel loved by a certain someone I don't have romantic memories of him I feel alone I feel angry that I don't have a lovey relationship I'm jealous of other people's relationships I want to tell him, but he is in a war zone so I suck it up I feel forgotten since all he worries about is his stupid friends I feel like a bitch because I think his friends are stupid I hurt because he wont tell me that he misses me as much as I miss him I hurt because he is cold and distant I'm upset because I want to give up I'm depressed and just want him to show me that he loves me, a letter, something anything! F this, it doesnt even matter what I feel or think