Sorry no Texas

When we found out when Sloans predeployment leave was we of course figured we would go to Texas. After some thought though I finally told Sloan I did not want to waste money to listen to a certain someone bitch because I don't have the kids over there every freakn day. Now if you are from Texas you know how a june is there, over 100 everyday and you avoid going out if you can. So we end up sitting there doing nothing till around 5 when it finally cools down. I don't want to waste money doing this! I'm about to spend 6 freakn months there, and I don't want to add to it! See now I sound selfish, so I told Sloan I would fly him down there, he is the one leaving so he is most important. Turns out he thought I wanted to go and in fact he does not want to waste money on a Texas trip either. So good no time wasting trip down there. We have realized over the years that every time we waste money on a Texas trip, it truly is a waste of time and money. Sloans friends love to see him and hang out with him every night, but I have no one there anymore. They all disappeared and taught me that I never really mattered to them. So I hang out in my parents house the whole time and never leave it. Which is fine my mom is my only best friend now, but she knows it's almost become depressing to go back to all Sloans many friends and no one giving a shit to see me. But whatever so is life for me. You know I think I need to look over Sheldons friend chart to see how you make friends, because everyone I went to high school still has best friends that they talk to all the time, give a shit, and even makes trips to see them. Hmmm now how on earth do you get a friend like that?! I've even asked Sloan how he has friends galore but I know it's because everyone that meets him loves him. I know I know I bitch and bitch about this, but if you have friends you have no idea how it feels.